Hello,

Hope you are doing well as you are reading this?

This is about where I am at the moment. I don’t love the Lord enough. Recently my blog posts is about me battling internally with myself. I drifted away from God. I gave into myself, I made a lot of things about me. Things I don’t give a thought before, I now crave for. I love God, but recently is only by mouth. Everyone around me sees me as being different and a really nice person, but I hate who I am. I don’t love God enough. My personal life shifted away from the Lord. This is what I live for, I want to please God. And I know I am not. I am really battling internally. I can’t seem to cut out all the things that takes me away from the Lord like I’d used to. I used to want to read the Bible at all times, now I don’t desire too. This did not just happen suddenly. I have been failing for a while now. All started with the little things, trying to please people rather than please God. I failed my saviour. I can’t not say it enough. Jesus Christ saved me and gave me a purpose to live. I thought everything was going to be easy, now the battle truly began, things I didn’t want to do and hate are the things I easily do most times. Things I thought will be easy and will truly nourish my soul are the things I find it hard to do. Man, what happened? I need to get back to my saviour and fully surrender back to him. I gain nothing from the world. I am nothing without the Lord. This is a learning curve for me. Learning curve may be too late. I hate sin, but I choose to sin sometimes. Keep praying for me. Every Christian will go through this. But a truly born-again Christian will also realise this and fully devote his or her life to Christ. Keep praying for me. Choose to live for Christ. Please, live for God. Without God you and I are nothing. Even if we have everything, without God everything is meaningless.

Romans 7: “18-25:  18For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. 19For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. 20Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 21I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. 22For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: 23But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 25I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.”

Thanks for reading and KEEP THE FAITH STRONG!!!!