Hello, this is a self reflection for me. Recently, I have thought of being something. I gave in into what everyone told me. I have recently completed my nursing degree and currently working in an hospital with a graduate program. I have fit in well, I would say. But fitting in, I have been complimented here and there. One of the rules I live my live with is not taking compliments, no matter what. Recently I have switched, I have been complimented a lot to the point that all I do now is crave for compliments after doing what I am suppose to do as a nurse. I know this might seem so little, but it takes a toll on your life. I heard a man of God speaking to a brother once. The brother said the reason why people get depressed a lot is that they don’t love themselves enough. Saying to the pastor, he said what do you think? The pastor replied and said the best way to live is to think nothing of yourself. Then he explained. If you think too low of yourself, you become depressed and miserable, and if you think too high of yourself, the moment you slightly think less of yourself, you become miserable and depressed. This is me. I became too full of myself. I have now put God to the side in a way. Sometimes I feel like beating myself up. I tell myself “God brought you here, God gave me everything” “Literally”. I finished high school, no friends stuck around, I was not cool enough to befriend, sad, depressed, no one remembered me, I was not cool enough. Looking back now, that is funny, but that was my reality then. Conservative, maybe that was why. “Well not my loss at all, I gained Christ”. I discovered an old friend in my room. A friend I knew since I was five, but never said anything to. I picked up my Bible for the first time in 13 years on a personal level. When I was 18 years old, I picked up my Bible for the First Time to read it on a personal term. I fell in love with reading my Bible. I fell in love with the one who died for me. I gave my live to Jesus Christ. I truly became a Christian. I began to hate what I craved to have. I hated worldly things. Dirty Jokes, keep them away from me. The little I gave to the world, the deeper I went into it. I work in a circular environment, where I observe people claiming to be something. Everyone wants to tell the other people I am something and I am better than you. I gave in. I became what I despised. I became my despise. What happened? I gave in, I drifted away from God. The moment I have nothing to say or get a criticism of any sort, I feel sad. “People don’t care about me anymore”. No!! “I got humbled by God”. I reflected, I am nothing without my Lord Jesus Christ. People will be people, Circular people are not Christians, that is the reason why I don’t feel part of them at work, I crave to be with God’s people. I crave God. I am noting without God, God is my everything. Trust in the Lord and not in yourself and not in people.

Jeremiah 17: 5-11: Thus saith the LORD; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the LORD.6For he shall be like the heath in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, in a salt land and not inhabited.7Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is.8For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.9The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?10I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.11As the partridge sitteth on eggs, and hatcheth them not; so he that getteth riches, and not by right, shall leave them in the midst of his days, and at his end shall be a fool.

Proverbs 3:5-8: Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.6In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. 7Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. 8It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

Without God I am nothing, Without God, everything is meaning.

Thanks for reading and KEEP THE FAITH STRONG!!!