I am done running from the Lord. I am done living for me. Man, my life is not it at all. Saved, but canal. I am wicked. I am not living for God I am living for myself. I am consumed in my sins. I don’t put God first anymore. I don’t read the Bible like I used to. I am only living for myself. I changed. I became first in my life. I changed. I supressed the Holy Spirit in me. This is not life. Christ is life. I found Him, loved Him and turned on Him. Yet He still loves me, waiting for me. Wanting me to live for Him like I used to. I am horrible. I turned on the only friend I had when everyone left me. I turned on the only source of my happiness. I turned on my Saviour. I turned on my Lord. I turned. I got consumed in my lust. Lusting after the things of this world. Lusting after women. Man, I became horrible. I chose things. I always felt the convictions that the things I chose are not right, but I shoved them aside. They caught up to me. I stopped living for my Lord. I want God back in my life. I am done living as a canal Christian. I want to cherish my faith. I want to hold on to it like this is all I have. It is all I have. Christ is all I have. I am done partaking in sins. I am done living for me. I am done lusting after my flesh. I am done lusting after women. I am done feeding my flesh. I am done. I am done living for myself. To be a canal Christian, horrible. God saved me from the things I am running to. I want to live for my Saviour. Man, I want God’s peace back in my life. This is not life that I am living. It is not living life if I am not living for God. Today 19th of May 2024 2057hrs, I choose to live for my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ. Today I choose Life.

Keep me in your prayers.