Everything all counts for nothing, but God counts for everything. How are you doing? I have been fine, “thanks for asking”. I have recently started working as a Registered Nurse in a hospital. I now work in a hospital and a Nursing home. Let me go into a rabbit hole for one. I came on shift 2 weeks ago, one of my patients was getting discharged to a nursing home. I have known this patient for a while, she had dementia, but we developed some form of therapeutic relationship. We talked about anything she was thinking at anytime. On that particular day, she told me she was going home and she asked me if I was going to come and see her. I laughed and stated “no”. Few hours later, I called the nursing home to tell them the patient was on the way there. Funny enough, that was the nursing home where I work as a causal staff. I laughed within myself and said to myself ” I will definitely come and see you ma’am”. Coincidence? maybe, but that is life.

In the two months of working in the hospital, I have seen a lot, experienced a lot and met a lot of interesting heads. People who have passed. This is nothing new to me now, since I have seen a lot of people pass in the nursing home I work in. My friend, those things teaches me and draws me near to God.

I was looking after a guy with a newly diagnosed condition. He felt helpless, me being me, I tried to build a rapport with him to get an insight, one thing led to another, he told me “It came at me fast, I was having fun, enjoying my life and here I am”. I immediately within myself remembered the book “Sinners in the hands of an angry God by Johnathan Edwards, which is a sermon preached back in the 17th century “I think”. He explained how people plan their lives, but death comes upon them suddenly and they begin to question their plan and begin to evaluate it. “A lot of vague summaries there, but here we are”.

I met another person, A self-proclaimed gay man. Disrespectful to everyone but himself, a man with a horrible health issue struggling with his health. This man loves to talk about himself, everything is about him. Found out that this man was married with kids, divorced his wife and went with a man. Horrible. Self, self, self. People only people themselves first nowadays. People make everything about themselves. Me included, I hate to admit it, but what will that do for me? I put myself first. Whenever I put myself first, I am never happy. It is like I am running a rat race, chasing my own tale. Live without God is meaningless. I hate to admit it, but I am horrible. I always think highly of myself. The times I put myself first are the times I am never happy and struggling with my life, but the times I put God first is always the best times of my life. “Why can’t I just do this forever?” I read a book “The Freedom of Self-Forgetfulness”. That book was so thought-provoking and challenged my way of thinking, which I do appreciate a lot. The main point of the book is that you should not think too high of your self, because when you fall below your expectations, you would not be happy. Another main point is that you should not think too low of your self, because you will be living a miserable life. The book left a solution in this way “think nothing of yourself”. Apostle Paul was a great example used in the book. “think nothing of yourself”, not what everyone one tells you nowadays, everyone wants to think too highly of themselves. The moment you think nothing of yourself, they perceive it as you are thinking too low oof yourself and they immediately think that you are depressed. They think they are the happy one, “I giggle to myself”. The ones chasing the same things, trying to be like themselves and everything else, thinks the one who is trying to be different is the weird one. Hmmmmm, make it make sense. You are chasing fun, money, sex, jobs, relationship, date nights to be happy and all I have to do is to obey God’s commandments to be happy. Make it make sense.

I hate to admit it, but I am horrible too. I had a thought within myself one time and I questioned myself, why did I all of a sudden care about me too much?. I used to be selfless and put people first all the time. Then I discovered that I haven’t been putting God first in my life. Life without God is meaningless, and live without putting God first is horrible. Why is everything and everyone around us so self-centred. I observe people a lot, just to see how they live life, learn from them, and make a difference in my own life. Everyone tend to be the same. People are so self-centred. People leave relationships because they are not feeling like they are getting what they want. People go to “cool looking” churches because they want to feel good about themselves. They don’t want to feel any “negativity” about themselves. Guess what? that is why they avoid going to Bible-believing churches. They call their sins out. Anything that feeds any form of negativity to them is against them. Meanwhile, I have observed born-again Christians, they are generally the most self-less people I have observed. They will go out of their way to help you. They will always put God first and others second. They don’t put themselves first, because they know God served them from themselves. Look at it this way, the “opposites of the Bible”. The Bible talks about God vs devil, Cain vs Abel, Good vs evil. The Bible also talked about God vs ourselves. Interesting. Ourselves vs God. This means we are constantly fighting against God. To break it down in a simpler form, this means that God is good and we are bad. One may say “why can we be saved then?”. God sent his son “Jesus Christ”, who is good and if you receive him and live in him, and obey His commandments, His goodness covers our “bads”. Our “bads” is our sins. JOHN 3:16 (For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.).

Jesus truly saves, my friend. Time is ticking, today may be the last for you. No one will save you from you sins, not even you, but Jesus Christ. Why are you running after everything to please yourself? You will never be satisfy!!!!!!!!!!!. These are the three things you are constantly chasing. “Lust of the flesh, lust of the eyes and the pride of life”. Although you chase after a lot, they are all these three things. They serves for nothing, they feed nothing. They may satisfy you now, but never enough. Get away from pornography, get away from the drugs, abstain from sex outside marriage, abstain from sexual/ romantic relationships outside marriage. God first. Put God first. Abstain from sins. You think you are having fun now, but the price you are paying will destroy you soul.

REFERENCE BIBLE VERSES

2 Timothy 3: 1-9: This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God; Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away. For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts, Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. Now as Jannes and Jambres withstood Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, reprobate concerning the faith. But they shall proceed no further: for their folly shall be manifest unto all men, as theirs also was.

2 Timothy 2: 22: Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

Ecclesiastes 12: 13-14: Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man. For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.

1 John 2:15-17: Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.

Isaiah 55: 6-13: Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the fir tree, and instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree: and it shall be to the LORD for a name, for an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.

Thanks for reading and KEEP THE FAITH STRONG!!!!!