Dear God,

First of all, I want to thank you for my life. I want to thank you for this point in my life. I really do appreciate you. I know I have not be truly faithful to you. I have no excuses, but I have been putting myself first. I am no body without you. It all started well. I remember when I gave my life to Christ. It all started well. I read my Bible regularly. Separated from the world unto God. But now, I switched up. I became full of myself. I think something of myself now, when I know I am nothing. I used to feel a peace within me. I couldn’t explain it then. I felt like nothing could go wrong. But I became too comfortable and lost the zeal to truly love God and stick to God. Where did it all go wrong? This is what I ask myself everyday. I am now trying to be different from the world, but not separated unto God. In a sense, I made myself my God. And I didn’t like myself. God saved me from myself, why should I then rely on myself? Myself has nothing to offer. Myself is horrible. Myself wants to indulge in every sins imaginable, and I do cave in sometimes. What happened? University happened, engaging in the things of this world happened, going against God happened. Going on that date happened. I caved in for the lust of my flesh. I caved in for the lust of my eyes. I caved in for the pride of life. I happened. What a horrible life and feeling to claim to love God but deep down, and in your private life you are the very opposite. I know what to do to go back, but I need to discipline myself. Not only that, I need the continuous abundant Grace of God. It’s like I am with a constant war within myself everyday. I truly want God, but me want me too. Truly the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Keep me in your prayers my fellow family in Christ. I don’t want to go astray.

This was what I was going through a few days ago. I am back serving my Lord now. There may be someone going through this as well. My friend, the Christian faith is a battlefield. But God has won the battle. Stick to God and let Him lead your life. My friend, God is always Good and you will be fine.

Thanks for reading and KEEP THE FAITH STRONG!!!!!!!!!